now i'm cutting

I have started cutting now that I am not able to deal with life via food.

My therapist suggested putting a rubber band around my wrist and snapping it really hard as a socially acceptable alternative. That is just stupid. How can it be socially acceptable to walk around with huge bruises on your arms? I stuck with cutting and lying about it to the therapist.

My husband notices and has asked me to stop, and I honestly don't know how. How can I burden him with the fact that 90% of the time I cut after we have argued? Why is my head so fucked?

Comments

[Corrie]

As someone who has been cutting for several years. I will not say dont cut. You have to find within yourself something that would give you the same satisfaction as cutting will. I too have tried the rubber band, using a red marker to simulate blood and many other alternatives suggested to me by non cutters. It is an addiction that with enough willpower from within you will eventually find your are able to stop. 7 years ago I was cutting 2 and 3 times a day I could not deal with life. Now if I cut there maybe months in between and the cuts are not as severe as they used to be. All I can say is find that inner strength that everyone has and depend on it not on anyone else to get you through this.

[Jane]

I eat bad foods and make myself throwup atleast 3 times a week... On purpose...

[Megan]

The rubber band isn't more socially acceptable, its less damaging with less risk than cutting. I also use ice water plunges/ I fill a container with ice then enough water to maker them float a tiny but and I place my hand or what ever in it until it hurts or is numb. It stops my need to cut which tends to become a biological addiction. This is less damaging. I repeat this as many times as needed.