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...can't be the strong, beautiful woman you think you married.

I lost 80 lbs and am on my way to putting it all back on. I feel like a failure Letting myself down is hard, but seeing the disappointment in my husband's eyes when he sees me binging is the worst feeling. I am so sorry I can't be the strong, beautiful woman you think you married.

All too real.

I lost all my weight within a year of my surgery. I'm now a size 6 and look great. But ever since my surgiversary I've been eating like total crap. I have chocolate and cookies hidden in my nightstand. I have candy squirreled away in my office desk. I've been eating my stashes, along with fast food, every single day. I don't know why I'm doing this, why it got triggered by my surgiversary, or how to make myself stop. I'm scared.

Midnight binger

My boyfriend wants to get married. Or at least move in. I really love him, but if he lived here, he would see how much I really eat. Sooner or later, he would catch me at 3am scarfing down crap I don't even like. And then throwing it up.