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Weighty Secret: Flattered

I should be flattered. My mother, who herself has had trouble with her weight her whole life, is trying to get approval for the same surgery I got. I hope for the best, but I'm afraid she'll either die under the knife or fail miserably. She's never been as strong as me.

find myself being very judgemental of obese people now... I was obese less than a year ago!

Not eating at all gives me a rush, a feeling of power, that I can sip tea all day and drink a protein drink and avoid all food, I am addicted to dieting. Its weird I hate people who saying they love to diet and exercise, they are generally assholes and yet I love the feeling of restricting my food and having everyone say that I never eat and I look like I am losing more weight. I know it won't last forever because everything in my life I fuck up, so I am riding this wave as long as I can.