Weighty Secret: Slob.

I've lost nearly 200 lbs, and I'm smaller than I was in high school, or even middle school, and yet... I still feel like a huge freakin' slob!

When people compliment me on my weight loss, and tell me that I look great, I feel like either they are just trying to be nice, or they aren't seeing the "real me" and they are in some way "fooled" and I almost feel ashamed that they think I look great, because I KNOW I don't. What's wrong with this picture? Why can't I just be proud of myself and accept myself as others have accepted me?!?!f

Comments

[twitter.com/christophallen]

I feel exactly the same way. I think it takes awhile for our brains and spirit to make the shift and realize that we look completely different than we did when we were fat. It's a strange situation. But congratulations on your weight loss and you SHOULD be proud of yourself.

[Seas]

I can completely relate. I still feel HUGE. Sometimes I see a picture of myself and can't believe that is me. Or if I keep looking at it, I convince myself that I am still fat...somehow in my mind, even though I am less 145lbs.

I feel like people who don't know me would never know I had the surgery and have been told this personally. I just don't believe them because I feel huge. A size 4-6 shouldn't feel huge (at 5ft 9 inches tall)...but I do.

I didn't expect to be this far out from surgery and have "mind issues" at this point, 4 and a half years later.

It's perception. I just wonder if I will ever get over it or at least get used to it.

[Laura]

I feel the same. I am 10 months out 90 pounds lighter and 10 pounds from my goal weight. I still feel fat. Even when I look at the clothes that don't fit me anymore. I still see what's left to go and get sad.

I have considered a therapist to help me with my issues, but I don't really have the money or the time to do it.