weighty secrets - Sexual abuse.

I was sexually abused as a very young child and have worked very hard through therapy to deal with it. Prior to therapy, food was my answer. If the doughnut didn't work, maybe the pizza would. I spent years MO, protecting myself with two of me. Now that I have lost, and grieved for my "protector and cushion" (130 pounds of extra me), I feel vulnerable and scared. The real me is out there and folks pay attention to me and expect things of me. I can't hide any more. While I have come a long way in understanding and dealing with what happened, it looks like I get to do some more. Sigh.

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So many can relate to what you are saying but either won't come forward like you or will say nothing. The statistics between "morbid obesity" and "childhood sexual abuse" are huge. I think something that is most often overlooked is just what you have described...being visible to the public again after being ignored and happy about that for years.

I think the best thing anyone in your situation can do is to yes, here we go, see a therapist. Be honest with yourself, be honest with them and talk about the previous abuse and how it's hard to deal with the changes and the attention you're receiving now as opposed to before. I wish you the greatest of luck in doing this, because I know it's not an easy step to take.