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weighty secrets - Sexual abuse.

I was sexually abused as a very young child and have worked very hard through therapy to deal with it. Prior to therapy, food was my answer. If the doughnut didn't work, maybe the pizza would. I spent years MO, protecting myself with two of me. Now that I have lost, and grieved for my "protector and cushion" (130 pounds of extra me), I feel vulnerable and scared. The real me is out there and folks pay attention to me and expect things of me. I can't hide any more. While I have come a long way in understanding and dealing with what happened, it looks like I get to do some more. Sigh.

Thin me.

Every time I lose 6 or 7 pounds, I immediately stop whatever I'm doing that's working and go back to eating junk and not exercising. Because thin me was sexually abused. And I'm afraid to be thin even though I know I'll never be sexually abused again

Hit.

I was thinner when you met me. So when I got fat and you hit me, I thought that having weight loss surgery would make you stop. I lost well over a hundred pounds and the only way I got you to stop was to finally call the police on you years later. I hate you for abusing me, but I'm glad I had the surgery.