weighty secrets | Secrets are things we give to others to keep for us.

weighty secret - ED

There is only one way I can keep my nice new body and still binge. Everyone knows what it is, but no one talks about it. No one else says they resort to such a thing. Maybe I am the only one? Maybe this is not the right support group for me. This is not about weight loss surgery. Or maybe it is. maybe I am not alone and if someone else would just SAY it, I would feel that I could too.

weighty secrets - Gaining on purpose.

"Oh. My. Gosh. I started eating to gain FIVE pounds. Because I needed to gain weight for surgery I tought would be in June. Now its July. I obsessed over that five pounds, feeling like a beached whale, and now, I can not stop eating. This is my biggest nightmare come true. THIS is where its better to be anorexic. Because I know by this time Wed. if I have not stopped that bulimia will begin. Bulimia the ultimate secret shame. I. can. no.t do. this. to. myself. anymore. The degradation.. the shame, almost intolerable. I can't stand it. I can't stand the sight of me."

Chew and Spit

There's post ops that do this on purpose.