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weighty secrets - secret purge....

 

• sometimes I eat too big of a bite just to see if things will still get stuck
• Im angry i am 25 and will probably never get to wear a bikini
• I love my boyfriend of 7 years but am afraid I may want to cheat
• I am mad I dont dump
• I love the way I feel about myself when I go out or get dressed
• I love how proud my dad is of me
• If my anatomy would allow me to force myself to throw up I would binge
• I am so angry when I look at pictures of myself at 320 lbs and am terrified of going back there
• I realize I have to tackle my overeating issues soon
• When I see other fat people, I feel sad for them but happy its not me
• I still want to sit down with 4 cheeseburgers,fries and ice cream alone on the floor and then cry after ive eaten it all
• I want to run into my ex bf at some point and STUN him
• I wonder will I ever be normal will food run my life forever...sometimes I wish I was addicted to meth instead
• Before surgery I used to think about food 24/7
• after surgery I think about food 24/7

weighty secrets - Reverted.

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I'm two years out and think I've reverted back to my old ways. Butterfingers and Reese's Peanut Butter Cups are so easy to eat. I'm scared and know I shouldn't be doing it but give me that food. I'll be back at 330 by the time I finish this 'secret'. :( I don't know where to turn for help ;(

weighty secrets - Sugar Slut.

I am 15 months post-op, have lost nearly 60kgs (130lbs) and am about 15kg (30lbs) away from goal. I can't stop eating sugary foods. 

Unfortunately I hardly dump, but have terrible mood swings. Pre-op I loved savoury foods, now I've got a sweet tooth.

 Yesterday I ate a whole packet of TimTam biscuits. Pre-op I would NEVER have even considered doing that! How f*ked up is that???