weighty secrets | Secrets are things we give to others to keep for us.

weighty secret - size too.

I hate women who had surgery and are a size 2. I want to be a 2 but know I won't ever be because my body just isn't made that way.

More than that I hate that some of the size 2 people look down on me BECAUSE I am not a size 2.

weighty secrets - NOTICE.

I am 10lbs away from my goal weight. For the past week I've been eating doritos, oreos, cinnamon buns... After eating a macaroni and cheese sandwich I forced myself to sit down and think about what I'm doing and why.

I'm afraid that I'm going to reach my goal, and my husband still won't notice me or have anything nice to say. At least while I have something to lose I can blame it on the fat.

weighty secrets - Cross Addiction

That cross-addiction thing? Yeah, I might have one...but am so afraid to tell anyone...

weighty secrets - wine and KFC

I found out yesterday that as of Monday I am probably without a job. So I drank an entire bottle of wine. Then today I ate KFC and Mac & cheese... I don't really care or feel guilty about it though so whatever.

weighty secrets - That time of the month.

Every time I gain my "Time of the month" bloat I freak out. You'd think I'd be used to it, but when that scale moves even a pound upwards I die a little inside.

weighty secrets - Fail.

It gives me a sick pleasure (that my good side knows is wrong) to watch you fail at weight loss.

weighty secrets - bits

I'm afraid I still won't know where my life is headed and my theory that my life is the way it is BECAUSE of my size (read: confidence and self esteem) will be blown to bits after WLS.

weighty secrets - Liar.

I lied when I went in for my psychiatric evaluation as part of the pre-op process. When asked if I ever had an eating disorder, I said no. I had been bulimic for several years. It's not an issue post-op even 4 years out, but I still feel "fat" and see "fat" when I look in the mirror. It's only when I see myself in a picture, am I shocked that the person I see is me. I don't think I'll ever not feel fat, even after losing 140lbs and now a small size.

weighty secrets - Present company included?

I think obesityhelp.com is full of snotty-ass bitches who need to get a fucking life.

weighty secrets - Crumbled.

When they tell you a good solid marriage will last the fall out after WLS, and one teetering in the middle or with any issues will fail. BELIEVE THEM. 

I never thought it would happen to me, but my marriage crumbled and I live an entirely different life. 

Not better. Not happier. 

The fact is, not only will your dress size change...so will most aspects of your life, in some way or another. Not exactly for the positive! It truly is a HUGE trade off....in more ways than one. 

More ways than you could ever imagine.