weighty secrets | Secrets are things we give to others to keep for us.

weighty secrets - Liar.

I lied when I went in for my psychiatric evaluation as part of the pre-op process. When asked if I ever had an eating disorder, I said no. I had been bulimic for several years. It's not an issue post-op even 4 years out, but I still feel "fat" and see "fat" when I look in the mirror. It's only when I see myself in a picture, am I shocked that the person I see is me. I don't think I'll ever not feel fat, even after losing 140lbs and now a small size.

weighty secrets - Present company included?

I think obesityhelp.com is full of snotty-ass bitches who need to get a fucking life.

weighty secrets - Crumbled.

When they tell you a good solid marriage will last the fall out after WLS, and one teetering in the middle or with any issues will fail. BELIEVE THEM. 

I never thought it would happen to me, but my marriage crumbled and I live an entirely different life. 

Not better. Not happier. 

The fact is, not only will your dress size change...so will most aspects of your life, in some way or another. Not exactly for the positive! It truly is a HUGE trade off....in more ways than one. 

More ways than you could ever imagine.

weighty secrets - Serious complications.

My procedure was rny gastric bypass on May 28, 2009. My beginning weight was 287 lbs. Immediately after surgery I developed Sepsis. The staple gun used during surgery failed & I had two leaks in my stomach. On the morning of May 29th, I went back into surgery to repair the leaks. I ran a high fever, & was placed in ICU. I developed pneumonia, my lungs collapsed, renal failure, swelled up to 360 lbs & I was in a coma for 10 weeks & was placed on a ventilator, & a feeding tube was placed in my stomach. I was given a 30% chance to live. I spent a total of 91 days in the hospital. I lost my muscles during the hospital stay. I am still learning how to walk again with physical therapy. The week before I came home from the hospital, they removed the feeding tube & began to give me soft foods. Ever since they took out the feeding tube, I throw-up everything. Over the last few weeks I can't even keep water down. Since coming home 8/21/09, I have been placed back into the hospital six times. Recently placed back on feeding tube. Blood work shows I am not absorbing nutrients. NONE! I have lost 112 lbs in 7 mths. I was told by my doctor last week that I am dying.

weighty secrets - You will never have to diet again!

If you have the WLS Surgery- you'll never have to be on a diet again. BULLSHIT. You're on a diet for the rest of your life IF you want to stay at a semi- normal weight...

weighty secrets - Sadness = cookies

I'm sad so I'm eating cookies. Dipped in sugary coffee. It only hurts me, not the person who yelled at me. I know better. But I don't know any other place to put the hurt even after all the therapy paid for and pounds lost.

weighty secrets - Afraid of death.

I am a bit frightened that I might die from wls and maybe that is why I just can't get my 10% off. I am eating fairly well, but the weight won't come off. I am on a liquid diet until I see my surgeon in a few days. I am hoping to schedule, but only if I lose the weight. sigh.

weighty secrets - I will fail.

I am concerned that I will fail at wls, and I am sure it is not uncommon, but I won't tell anyone of course. I mean, I've failed at all other attempts to lose weight.

weighty secrets - Settle

I'm really scared that I am 'settling' with my current boyfriend because he doesn't seem to mind my flabby arms, belly, and thighs. I'm really scared but I'm even more scared to be alone.

weighty secrets - Using sex.

I am 360 lbs. I am going to have RNY....just started the process.

I use sex to validate my self worth but then question what is WRONG with the men/women that DO have sex with me. I wonder what their issues have to be to actually want to have sex with me. 

I wonder if I will still feel this way a year after surgery?